Hi, Salam Hari Raya and happy holidays!
I'm blogging from my bed currently, listening to pity yelpings of puppies outside of my house. The noise is coming through the other side of the fence on the opposite I believe. And the yelping sounds like new born pups. Besides the yelping, there's also a hopeless bark of an adult dog. Pity the new borns have to be born into this world in such a cold night. May all of you stay strong, it'll be warm again once the sun rises! Just like the awaiting long cold night before sunrise, this world is cruel, and only the strongest can survive. Adding to the misery, it begins to drizzle. May prayers will be with you.
Do you know what my favourite weather is? It is right after a downpour, when the air is fresh and moist, the sky clearing, the sun beaming down again, the soil damped, every plant boasting with water droplets, the birds and bugs sing happily again. Everything is lively, so joyful, as compared to the dark sky and horrible storms just moments before.
I love the sky. Staring at the light blue expanse of sky I often wondered in awe how far it goes where the sky starts to darken to mysterious dark blue, then finally to the unknown pitch black, the colour of outer space. Then I will feel how small, how insignificant my existence is! Our universe is enormous, is there a limit to it? What is there beyond the limit? Why am I here and why not elsewhere? A person's existence is so insignificant and as tiny as an ant to the universe, where u accidentally stepped on and killed the ant, but u won't give the slightest thought about it. No one cares. So why are you still dwelling on small matters? Challenges either bring you down, or build you up. They may seem the world to you today, but it may be just a laughing matter when you look back in the future. Take a deep breath, look at the sky, dust yourself off, and move on. Life goes on, clock ticks away, every beings continue their course of living.
Alright! Time to sleep. Few days for me to spend at home before moving in to new house in Bangsar and begin the new chapter of my life. Gotta enjoy my holiday while I still can!
Sleep tight. x
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Sunday, August 4, 2013
My fav TV series
Hi again.
Recently, I am addicted to a tv series which feeds on my thirst for knowledge on dogs. It is the Dog Whisperer! The host of the series, dubbed as the Dog Whisperer, is non other than the amazing Cesar Millan. He's a gifted Mexican, who underwent English classes and now speaks very fluent English. Besides getting to know how to handle problematic dogs, the approach he uses is amusing. He understands what dogs need, physically and psychologically, and rehabilitate both the dogs and also the owners, so that they can share moments of their lives together happily.
In dealing with dogs which have issues related to aggressiveness, terrified or frustration, he approach them with calm and assertive ways, and address their problems. He states that dogs are natural follower, and they are able to pick the energy of the human immediately. So its important to choose a dog with energy lower or equal than yours. If the dog is of high energy and you don't fully utilise his energy, they will turn to other means to release the energy, which resulted in dogs behaving in aggressive ways, or obsessed over certain stuff. They will live their lives miserably, and this is not healthy for the human too.
I am impressed with the way he approaches and addresses the issue of a particular dog. I hope I can apply the knowledge learnt in my daily life too! For instance, if two dogs engaged in a fight, both of them have fault. If one dog is nervous and uncertain, the other dog can easily pick up this energy and initiate a fight with it. Same goes to us human. Both parties have fault in an event of argument or fight. If one is not calm and assertive enough, people will tend to provoke him and manage to result in a fight. If you are calm and stand firm on your ground, you will not be provoked so easily! The second you give in to the "invitation" of an unpleasant event, you lose. Therefore, the moral of this case is to be calm and be firm on your stand when you deal with people, so that you are able to avoid conflicts.
I know that patience is never my virtue. I get impatient and mad easily when things don't end up how I expect them to be, or a person does not act what I expect them to. This is one of the issue I had identified and need to work on. I used to love treating people how they treated me. The reacting type of person. I am not the person who initiates, treat people how you want to be treated, you see. If people treat me really good, I'll make sure I treat them extra good. Vice versa, if I get ill treated by people, I will treat them worse then what they had done to me.
Well, to be honest. this is not a good way particularly when I deal with hot tempered people. I used to think, yes, she knows she's a bad tempered girl, but she wouldn't change, yet she uses it as an excuse during one of our heated argument "You know very clear that my temper is not good, I'm working on it, but can't you understand me and tolerate just a little bit?". I thought she was being unfair and unreasonable having made this statement. Does she mean that she is born with that terrible temper of hers, and this earns her the right to be harsh on me and I should understand, not start a fight and be patient with her? I hated people to be harsh on me, having born with a such mellow nature, I can't understand why would somebody wanna do that to me! I mean no harm to anybody at all. Let alone my dearest one! Foul words slashed on me mercilessly, cold stare like I'm too blunt not to get an obvious fact, twisted words with evil hidden meaning.. I am affected by surrounding easily, and these are all the negative signals that I pick up. I really did't think I deserve all these. What have I done for you to speak unkind words to provoke me!
And finally, I realized the reason behind. I must have not stood firm on my ground, I am not calm nor assertive enough on my principles, I appear to be astray in other's eyes and these attracted people to provoke me. And true enough, I usually give in, defend my bruised precious ego, and this is just the start of argument or fight waiting to happen. I am not aware that my uncertain behavior is welcoming malicious acts from people. Its time to gather myself, focus on bigger goals in life, stop dwelling on little matters that seems imperfect. Yes this is saddening, but this can be done. Cesar never gives up on any dogs, even if they have serious problems, because in his eyes, no one is born like this. Every being is born pure, and throughout their growth, they pick up energy from everybody, they learn to deal with things in life and it is the surrounding that makes a dog behave like this, same goes to human beings I believe. There is something to be done, and I should never give up, nor give in.
God sent every single being into this world for a purpose. Be it a huge destiny, that you're the future president of a country, or invent a cure to a deadly disease, or the person to discover unknown lives in outer space; or small purposes such as being a normal human and live through the years. Everything is a course, planned and destined. It is up to you to make people acknowledge your existence, make changes that could impact people's lives. Maybe my destiny is to change people, and this is just an obstacle in my life journey. God has sent her to challenge me, and I should accept this challenge in order to be a better person!
From just a TV show, to these whole lot of thoughts. This is why I am so addicted to the show. Cesar Millan is an inspiring person. I appreciate to have this opportunity to see life in different perspective. And on behalf of millions of dogs that you had rehabilitate, saved and changed, thank you Cesar. I hope to be like you someday, to help the animals. Keep it up.
Recently, I am addicted to a tv series which feeds on my thirst for knowledge on dogs. It is the Dog Whisperer! The host of the series, dubbed as the Dog Whisperer, is non other than the amazing Cesar Millan. He's a gifted Mexican, who underwent English classes and now speaks very fluent English. Besides getting to know how to handle problematic dogs, the approach he uses is amusing. He understands what dogs need, physically and psychologically, and rehabilitate both the dogs and also the owners, so that they can share moments of their lives together happily.
In dealing with dogs which have issues related to aggressiveness, terrified or frustration, he approach them with calm and assertive ways, and address their problems. He states that dogs are natural follower, and they are able to pick the energy of the human immediately. So its important to choose a dog with energy lower or equal than yours. If the dog is of high energy and you don't fully utilise his energy, they will turn to other means to release the energy, which resulted in dogs behaving in aggressive ways, or obsessed over certain stuff. They will live their lives miserably, and this is not healthy for the human too.
I am impressed with the way he approaches and addresses the issue of a particular dog. I hope I can apply the knowledge learnt in my daily life too! For instance, if two dogs engaged in a fight, both of them have fault. If one dog is nervous and uncertain, the other dog can easily pick up this energy and initiate a fight with it. Same goes to us human. Both parties have fault in an event of argument or fight. If one is not calm and assertive enough, people will tend to provoke him and manage to result in a fight. If you are calm and stand firm on your ground, you will not be provoked so easily! The second you give in to the "invitation" of an unpleasant event, you lose. Therefore, the moral of this case is to be calm and be firm on your stand when you deal with people, so that you are able to avoid conflicts.
I know that patience is never my virtue. I get impatient and mad easily when things don't end up how I expect them to be, or a person does not act what I expect them to. This is one of the issue I had identified and need to work on. I used to love treating people how they treated me. The reacting type of person. I am not the person who initiates, treat people how you want to be treated, you see. If people treat me really good, I'll make sure I treat them extra good. Vice versa, if I get ill treated by people, I will treat them worse then what they had done to me.
Well, to be honest. this is not a good way particularly when I deal with hot tempered people. I used to think, yes, she knows she's a bad tempered girl, but she wouldn't change, yet she uses it as an excuse during one of our heated argument "You know very clear that my temper is not good, I'm working on it, but can't you understand me and tolerate just a little bit?". I thought she was being unfair and unreasonable having made this statement. Does she mean that she is born with that terrible temper of hers, and this earns her the right to be harsh on me and I should understand, not start a fight and be patient with her? I hated people to be harsh on me, having born with a such mellow nature, I can't understand why would somebody wanna do that to me! I mean no harm to anybody at all. Let alone my dearest one! Foul words slashed on me mercilessly, cold stare like I'm too blunt not to get an obvious fact, twisted words with evil hidden meaning.. I am affected by surrounding easily, and these are all the negative signals that I pick up. I really did't think I deserve all these. What have I done for you to speak unkind words to provoke me!
And finally, I realized the reason behind. I must have not stood firm on my ground, I am not calm nor assertive enough on my principles, I appear to be astray in other's eyes and these attracted people to provoke me. And true enough, I usually give in, defend my bruised precious ego, and this is just the start of argument or fight waiting to happen. I am not aware that my uncertain behavior is welcoming malicious acts from people. Its time to gather myself, focus on bigger goals in life, stop dwelling on little matters that seems imperfect. Yes this is saddening, but this can be done. Cesar never gives up on any dogs, even if they have serious problems, because in his eyes, no one is born like this. Every being is born pure, and throughout their growth, they pick up energy from everybody, they learn to deal with things in life and it is the surrounding that makes a dog behave like this, same goes to human beings I believe. There is something to be done, and I should never give up, nor give in.
God sent every single being into this world for a purpose. Be it a huge destiny, that you're the future president of a country, or invent a cure to a deadly disease, or the person to discover unknown lives in outer space; or small purposes such as being a normal human and live through the years. Everything is a course, planned and destined. It is up to you to make people acknowledge your existence, make changes that could impact people's lives. Maybe my destiny is to change people, and this is just an obstacle in my life journey. God has sent her to challenge me, and I should accept this challenge in order to be a better person!
From just a TV show, to these whole lot of thoughts. This is why I am so addicted to the show. Cesar Millan is an inspiring person. I appreciate to have this opportunity to see life in different perspective. And on behalf of millions of dogs that you had rehabilitate, saved and changed, thank you Cesar. I hope to be like you someday, to help the animals. Keep it up.
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Updates of my life!
Hey there.
Here's a quick update of my life. it's been almost 2 months since iv finished my studies at MMU. Yeah I had finally graduated! Officially a proud Mechanical engineer. It feels like just yesterday I was still blindly following the path iv chosen: going for classes, complaining the lack of friends and how I sat solo in most classes, studying for exams, desperately doing my fyp which hardware turned out not working etc. Never a thought in mind that I am inching closer to the day I achieve my dreams - to become a Mechanical Engineer.
I used think engineer is a sacred job and engineers will have this professional aura around them. And I used to wonder how it's like when I become an engineer, how I need to hold huge responsibility on my shoulder cuz if the building I build collapsed, I could jeopardise human lives!
Now that iv became a Mechanical engineer, and you ask me how I feel bout it, my answer will be "meh." haha. Nothing sacred, not gonna participate in massive projects like I always watch on National Geographic. Building the next iconic skyscraper or huge underground tunnel like the Smart Tunnel of Malaysia. None! I'm just the old me, with an extra certificate on my hand. Well of course, I can always join the work force and do my best excel in it, so that I can eventually realise my final dream, which is to involve in massive projects that could benefit mankind.
So, after two months of dark, agonizing days of job hunting, God has finally shed some light on my path! It was a Tuesday evening when I went to my Gmail just to deposit another resume to apply a job which is recommended by my sis through fb msg. I have habit of checking my mails every morning, but won't bother it for the rest of the day. Then there it was, the news that iv been praying for for the past few nights. It came earlier that I had expected. "Congratulations, you have succeeded in the interview and we are offering you..." My heart raced when I clicked open the mail and quickly summoned my sister to share the joy. She was even more excited than me! When our eyes descends yo the figure beside the word basic allowance, our eyes widen with disbelieve. Holy crap, it's much more than what iv expected! Then our cheers were so loud that mom had to ask what's wrong from her tuition area. My parents are equally joyous to the news, mainly because their daughter will not work at Singapore anymore.
Well I love Singapore. The quality of living there is obviously higher than in Malaysia. One of the very obvious thing is you can see youngsters jogging alone around the parks and roads even if the sky is turning dark. In Malaysia, you can't see any people walking alone in deserted streets as the security here is not good. If you're alone walking and got lost, it's best not to wander around on your own. Stay at a safe place and call someone to fetch you would be great. But in Singapore, fret not. You can walk around til you find a bus station or mrt station (easily) and get to your place. Secondly, the food in sg is cheaper than Malaysia, and the wages are almost the same! That's why most Malaysians prefer to go there work. And I'm speaking for a jobless graduate.
But oh well, I am really lucky to get into such a reputable company as Cameron, and I won't give anything else in exchange with the opportunity. Hope everything will be fine for the first day of my work! May the next chapter of my life unfolds.
Here's a quick update of my life. it's been almost 2 months since iv finished my studies at MMU. Yeah I had finally graduated! Officially a proud Mechanical engineer. It feels like just yesterday I was still blindly following the path iv chosen: going for classes, complaining the lack of friends and how I sat solo in most classes, studying for exams, desperately doing my fyp which hardware turned out not working etc. Never a thought in mind that I am inching closer to the day I achieve my dreams - to become a Mechanical Engineer.
I used think engineer is a sacred job and engineers will have this professional aura around them. And I used to wonder how it's like when I become an engineer, how I need to hold huge responsibility on my shoulder cuz if the building I build collapsed, I could jeopardise human lives!
Now that iv became a Mechanical engineer, and you ask me how I feel bout it, my answer will be "meh." haha. Nothing sacred, not gonna participate in massive projects like I always watch on National Geographic. Building the next iconic skyscraper or huge underground tunnel like the Smart Tunnel of Malaysia. None! I'm just the old me, with an extra certificate on my hand. Well of course, I can always join the work force and do my best excel in it, so that I can eventually realise my final dream, which is to involve in massive projects that could benefit mankind.
So, after two months of dark, agonizing days of job hunting, God has finally shed some light on my path! It was a Tuesday evening when I went to my Gmail just to deposit another resume to apply a job which is recommended by my sis through fb msg. I have habit of checking my mails every morning, but won't bother it for the rest of the day. Then there it was, the news that iv been praying for for the past few nights. It came earlier that I had expected. "Congratulations, you have succeeded in the interview and we are offering you..." My heart raced when I clicked open the mail and quickly summoned my sister to share the joy. She was even more excited than me! When our eyes descends yo the figure beside the word basic allowance, our eyes widen with disbelieve. Holy crap, it's much more than what iv expected! Then our cheers were so loud that mom had to ask what's wrong from her tuition area. My parents are equally joyous to the news, mainly because their daughter will not work at Singapore anymore.
Well I love Singapore. The quality of living there is obviously higher than in Malaysia. One of the very obvious thing is you can see youngsters jogging alone around the parks and roads even if the sky is turning dark. In Malaysia, you can't see any people walking alone in deserted streets as the security here is not good. If you're alone walking and got lost, it's best not to wander around on your own. Stay at a safe place and call someone to fetch you would be great. But in Singapore, fret not. You can walk around til you find a bus station or mrt station (easily) and get to your place. Secondly, the food in sg is cheaper than Malaysia, and the wages are almost the same! That's why most Malaysians prefer to go there work. And I'm speaking for a jobless graduate.
But oh well, I am really lucky to get into such a reputable company as Cameron, and I won't give anything else in exchange with the opportunity. Hope everything will be fine for the first day of my work! May the next chapter of my life unfolds.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Resolutions and thoughts
And so we survived the 2012 and 2013 is here! Yay!
So... what is your new year resolution? Or should I put it in another way, is your new year resolution any different from last year's? Haha.
Well, mine does not go too far from last year's, but one of it brought me here.
One of my 2013 new year resolutions is to blog more, at least fork out some time to dedicate for the blog once a week. This is a promise to myself to nurture the interest in me.
I had always loved reading. And my favourite time of the day used to be after a hot shower, all cozy in my pjs and half lying on the long couch, with a hot cup of drink within reach, and a juicy novel in my hands. That was before dad discovered the comfort of the long couch and took over for his regular night dramas. From then on I have to retreat to the single couches around with my novel.
Since young, dad instilled the love of story books in us. I still can remember vividly that once dad introduced us to those really old, yellowish pocket sized books, I clung onto them, eyes moving line by line, brain picturing the dangerous adventure. Since then, I had been exposed to numerous story books. My favourite was the Harry Potter series. Well, which 11 years old kid doesn't buy the infamous Harry Potter and his magical adventures? For my case, I totally hooked up with it and I remembered searching through the mailbox on my 11th birthday, secretly hoping for any letters that declared my true identity as a witch, or any giant Hagrid coming to claim me from the muggles world, to the magical world where I truly belong. Having found none suspicious letters that bore the emblem of Hogwarts badge, not giving up, I then went around to search for a perfect length of stick, and murmured ''Lumos'' silently, hoping the end of the stick will glow as a prove of me being a witch. Alas, that was just an 11 years old little girl's dream, who read too much of story books and live in her own little fantasy. I see everything very clear now, don't worry. Haha. It is a bit funny and sheepish to admit to these ridiculous stuff that I did. But yeah, here you go, that prove that how deep I was into the books!
However, the older I grow, I never grow out of the story books. My favourite genre of story book is still preferably fantasies, with magical powers and happy endings. There's a part in me that is refused to grow up to face the cruel world. Since there is no happy endings in real life, the only way to picture them is through the story books! Real life is so messed up and I don't want to read novels with messed up endings too!
Recently I'm not able to find any books that fulfill my criteria, and so, I had moved my interest to newspapers. Not the sad accidents and the fact-twisting politics, but the columns where journalists pour their hearts out regarding almost everything ('cept politics, but they do use political news for examples sometimes.), from travelling, hobby, to any thoughts on recent popular incidents that occurred in both nationwide and international. The interesting play of words by different journalists attracted me, and how they made the story sound so full of life and colour and well reasoned. That is when a realization came to me, that I want to be like them. I want to be like them when I can have plenty of suitable vocabs to choose from and describe something around me in words, and face no problem in expressing my thoughts. Words are like double end swords. When used wisely you could go very far with it, but when utilised wrongly it could possibly hurt you.
Therefore, a blog once a week! Let's hope it will not be my resolution again for the coming year! :)
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