6h of March

Rumour has it that it is this Tuesday.
It is said to be announced at 8pm. Weird time.
I tried not to put my hopes high, after few lessons i had for the past sems.
I used to be very optimistic while waiting for my results, even hope for some miracles happened that i have better grades when I know I did badly in my tests.
But this time, I only hope to get what I think I deserve. I know how much effort Iv put in for the last exam, and hope the outcome would be satisfactory.
And yesterday, at 8 sharp, the results were released! And I was quite disappointed.
My results were all lower than expectation, It's worser than I thought it would be.

I know I shouldnt complain here, instead, I should learn my lesson and improve.
But let me rant for a post then I'll be just fine to move on.
You see, there are many kinds of people out there:
One, really hardworking, thirst for knowledge, and smart. Strong self discipline, frequently ask lecturer for any doubts. They of coarse, will get really good results.
Second, those who're not really nerds, they're able to put 100% into whatever they're doing. They love outings, they play, but when it comes to exam, they will only study few days before, super concentrate and get the most out of their time spent. They're able to get good results, altho not as good as the first category, but surprisingly enough, seeing their amount of time spent outside of their house.
Third, those who seem hardworking, constantly studying, spent most of their time studying few weeks ago before exams. By exam time, they finished their tutorials neatly, but still frantically flipping through notes and tutorials cause they have no confidence. You'll expect good results from them. But they're just average. Even astonishingly worser than second category. Why? Because they couldn't concentrate, have difficulties in utilizing their time. They are easily distracted, not giving their 100% into what they're studying. They panicked easily,they keep away from all possible distractions like radios, computers. They need to spend double the time studying just to get the same amount of intake as second category.
Well, sadly, I belong to the third category.

I shouldn't take the time spent as my input effort cause its not equal to the amount of knowledge I absorbed. I should change my way of studying so that it suits me, and not to compare with anyone else. It's very unfair when you compare the third category with the second category people. Second category, they spent much lesser time studying and yet they're able to get good results as compared to third category. So don't compare!  Don't care how people look at you, doubting you. They have better brains, their method of study suits them really well, they know what they want, what they capable of. Study is not for a feedback, award or any applause, it is a cause, for your own fulfillment, it is a responsibility, you live on this earth, you'll never stop studying. And when you refuse to study, this means you're decided to be ignorant, decided to reject any knowledge of this earth.

Remember, grades is important, but its not everything. Try your best to achieve good grades, and if you don't, accept the lesson, not ranting about it, not comparing with other people and feeling despair. Try your very best, and you'll have no regrets. Grades are important when you first graduated, and when you're out there working, people will forget about your grades, they only see how you perform. And if you feel grades are important, take it as a lesson. Grades showed how well you transform your effort into performance in exams, it doesn't really have to be proportional. You'll get nothing by comparing. Study well, study smart, be brave to face failure, be braver to stand up and move on to be better. Failure makes you a better person. I can do it :)